Laughter

Last afternoon i just had my lunch and was sitting on the corner of the steps. Just as i sat and gazed into my friends and classmates, everyone seemed so happy, enjoying their moments, cherishing life. Happiness was on the air. Chilled air was blowing from the far hills in the north and sun was playing hide and seek behind the clouds. The atmosphere was totally perfect and joy was all around. Everyhting seemed so normal, so very beautiful as if this was the exact moment they were waiting for.
I hold tightly to my cup of black steaming coffee that was comforting me against the goose bumps i was getting from the chilled air. I hold the cup tightly and stared into he black liquid that was floating inside my cup.Suddenly i was struck by this painful realisation. Why am i sitting here lonely being so much philosophic, so much thinking about what life is all about. I mean nobody ever was successful to unfold these mysteries, these reason of happiness or my loneliness. Was this moment not meant for me to just giggle around, be that kid again and play pranks, or might be trying on something to make others laugh and enjoy that full fledged laughter from the bosom of the heart?
I asked myself," Don't you feel like laughing all over again? "
A long pause and i sipped back into the black cold coffee and felt as it flowed through my mouth deep inside. Every gulp i take just makes me so addictive to it, a sense of being bewitched by the balck serpent.
I tried to laugh hard, belive me. But my throat is all choked, and m heart is blocked. A fake smile appeared like a crescent moon but deep inside it was nothing to be felt.I tried harder and harder and each time i tried, the smile shrinked bit by bit.
Perhaps i really forgot how to laugh, how to enjoy life, how to be in love with myself all over again? Why is this darkness all over me. I tried to shout out, but the voice was too feeble. I was feeling weakness covering me all over.
Love, happiness, laughter, giggle, smile, black coffee, the chilled wind- everyhting formed a typical puzzle deep inside which can never be solved. As i was thinking this deeply and sipping into my black poison again and again, suddenly i heard a voice that called my name. I was in a subconscious state as the cry echoed again and again into my ears. Suddenly i felt a soft touch on my back, and i looked back.
"What are you doing here sittting alone? Come join us"
I don't know what i was happening that moment. I lost control over my body and it was as if the brain was malfunctioning all over again suddenly. Suddenly i felt the strong smell of flowers as if i am in an orchid, felt like floating in a rainbow, feeling so different.
What is happening to me?

"HA HA HA HA HA"  .I was laughing all over again....
just laughing again and again and.......