A gift or a curse.......

Einstein once said , A life is of no use if not lived for others. This thinking was just hovering around my mind where deep inside i tried to find the secret of my survival, the mere reason of my existence, the oxygen that i breathe in. Am i living a life worthwhile?
Life a vicious cycle of existence, a cycle that starts with a beautiful beginning, a cry deep from inside, the first heart beat and there it goes. As it travels towards its destiny slowly and slowly towards death. Each and everyday unknowingly we take that small step towards our death that ends with another cry, a cry that has passion, emotions and love, a cry of loss, a cry of loneliness , a cry of feeling so empty.So is it all? does it end here? what about the life that is sandwiched between these two boundary of life and death?
I am no one to unravel that mystery, dig out the meaning of what life is, what emotions are, what love is? These words are so strong yet cannot be described.
Is life a gift or a curse? A curse where you are destined to come to this world with a cry, then you learn to smile, learn to crawl, learn to dream, smile while you dream, fall in love, create your weakness and unknowingly crawl to them. Perhaps all those management theories of needs, wants and what Maslow has been imposing to us is a simple realization of life in a complicated way.
So do we really need to complicate life? Do you like to live a life that ties you down and makes you dance, binds you to all the theories of existence. A book cannot teach you consumer behavior or can teach you what emotions is, life is, love is. Believe me it cannot.
Think once. Everyday when you close your eyes after a day's tiring work, you try to grasp some sleep and then you enter a different worlsd, a world you think so unreal, so like a virtual reality, what you call a dream. And you think this dream is a mere reflection of your reality. Huh!!  See now you are trying to console yourself, you want to get there what you dream of but you cannot, you think i am too much driven by emotions and thoughts cast away from reality. So close your eyes, listen the world around, feel the sounds, try touching those sounds, try to paint that blank campus with the colors of these sounds. Can you? can you bring a meaning to this existence.
When the first light enters through the window, and kiss my forehead, i think reality is much more beautiful. Who the hell cares about the last night dreams, the emotions, the strong moments, those unforgettable feelings and now you want to live a life that is more real, perhaps running back on the track. On your journey through this sandwich world you switch back and forth again and again. We say that's how you live it. Make the correct proportions and the cake is ready, fresh, soft , smoking. You smile, laugh aloud and that laughter echoes back again and again and again and one day that turns into a frightful shriek when you beg someone to close your ears, close your eyes. You long again for that virtual existence.
The mystery still remains undefined, the secret remains unfolded because it is meant to be so. It is us who decides where we are, where we want to be because believe me, whatever may this existence be - a gift or a curse, we have to live it, we have to stand in that storm, we have to get drenched in the tears, we have to get stained in the blood. So just try living a life. Live free.
This is your life and you have the power to control what direction you want it to steer. Mankind , society, humanity will stay here but you have to reach the other part of the sandwich one day and that day when you exhale the last breathe, when your vision will blur out, when you heart will beat for the last time,     take a pause.....think of the strong moments.........you wish you could have lived those moments again.

Life- a curse or a gift...........a secret or transparent.....a mystery or a card-house of emotions. Even god chuckles.